Jonathan Davis Addresses His Decision About Never Performing Korn’s Darkest Record

Korn’s debut self-titled album, which they recorded in June 1994 and released in October, focused on sensitive topics like bullying, child abuse, and drug abuse. While the album consisted of 12 songs, the last and longest track of the album, ‘Daddy,’ stood out as one of the most emotionally heavy songs. This track is special for Jonathan Davis because it depicts the story of his troublesome childhood. In a recent interview with Metal Hammer, Jonathan Davis talked about how he felt about doing it live.

“I felt like I robbed the world of doing that live for so long,” Jonathan said on why he decided not to perform the song until 2015. “I felt like I owed it to our fans that were hardcore enough to come and see us on the 20th anniversary of that album, but I don’t wanna do it again.”

“Going out and touring that record, I realized how dark it is – it’s some depressing sh*t,” he continued. “As we got into ‘Follow The Leader,’ it became more about groove. The emotion was there, but it wasn’t that particular darkness we captured on that first record.”

I don’t think I wanna go through that again,” he said, explaining Korn is not likely to reissue ‘Daddy’ while their original album’s 30th anniversary is approaching. “It was difficult, and I think I was proving to myself that I could do it too.”

Jonathan had so much trouble singing ‘Daddy’ that he sobbed uncontrollably as it was being recorded. In fact, the band didn’t perform it live for about 20 years before putting it on the 20th-anniversary tour in commemoration of the anniversary of their debut album.

In 2014, the Korn members embarked on a tour to celebrate their debut album, playing it in its entirety. Before they hit the road, Davis participated in a radio interview in the fall of 2014 and revealed that they didn’t play ‘Daddy’ until then since the song was too hard for him to face, but he wanted to salute their album completely, even if it was distressing for him.

In the caption of the post that a fan shared after one of the shows of their anniversary tour, it was written that Davis had started crying towards the end of this song and needed to take a break for a while before the show continued. It’s evident that the song is tough to sing for him, and it’s very understandable why he doesn’t want to include ‘Daddy’ in their following concerts, although he is aware of the fans’ expectations.