Brian May Recalls His Painful Grieving Process After Losing Freddie

Queen recently shared a video on their official Youtube channel about Queen’s final studio album ‘Made in Heaven’ and Freddie Mercury’s last days. In the video, Brian May reflected on how hard it was for him to deal with Mercury’s death.

As you all know, Freddie Mercury passed away on November 24, 1991, due to complications from AIDS disease. He had already been struggling with it for the last few years, but he didn’t want to go public until 1991. After Freddie’s death, his bandmates were unsurprisingly devastated, and they struggled to deal with it.

In the video released on Queen’s Youtube channel, Roger Taylor and Brian May talked about both the band’s final studio album and the emotional challenges they faced after Mercury’s death. The album, ‘Made in Heaven,’ was released after Mercury’s death. The frontman had recorded his vocals and piano parts, so the remaining band members decided to release it.

In the video, Brian May reflected on Mercury’s death and stated that he had a long grieving process. He said that he didn’t want to hear or say anything about Queen at the time. People wanted him to talk about Queen and Mercury, but he wasn’t ready for that. May avoided facing reality for some time, and when they went to the studio with Roger Taylor,  his grief was triggered. He realized that he had to deal with it, although it was really hard.

Brian May’s words on his grieving process after Mercury’s death:

“I think I can drag my heels. I think I went through a very extended grieving process. I kind of didn’t want to talk about Queen, and I went on my tour. All people wanted was to talk about Queen and Freddie’s death, and I couldn’t deal with it. I just said ‘Look, let’s just talk about what is happening now.’

So I had a bit of denial stuff going on, and I think I was reluctant to get back into opening those boxes and dealing with Freddie’s voice there. It was tough, to begin with, Roger took some of the tapes in the studio, and of course, that was the trigger I needed. I said, ‘No, no, don’t do that.’ It was a monumental task to deal with it.”

You can watch the full video below.