Anthony Kiedis’ Regret About His Audition For ‘My Own Private Idaho’

The early 1990s were a dark and trying period for Anthony Kiedis. Grief consumed him as he mourned the loss of his dear friend and bandmate, Hillel Slovak, to a drug overdose. He was battling his own demons, using more and more substances as he sought solace from the pain.

These personal struggles added to the already demanding lifestyle of being a musician and made it even harder for him to navigate the ups and downs of fame. He had to confront the harsh realities of life in the public eye, with all its pressures and expectations, making it more challenging to adapt to such a lifestyle.

Just around these times, the RHCP frontman received an invitation to audition for a role in the movie ‘My Own Private Idaho.’ However, amid his struggle with addiction, Kiedis arrived at the audition high on drugs. As he stumbled through his lines and struggled to focus, he couldn’t help but feel a sense of apathy.

During such difficult times, he didn’t have the energy for an audition because he had to channel all his power to deal with his demons. Still, after some time, the rocker managed to rise above his grief and come victorious in his personal battles. He got rid of his addiction and went sober in the 2000s. However, looking back on those dark days, he had some regrets.

In fact, he revealed one in a 2002 interview with Lawrence Grobel from Movieline. According to Anthony Kiedis, his biggest regret about that audition was not being transparent about his struggles. The fact that he didn’t open up about the hardships he faced weighed heavily on him. Moreover, he regretted going the audition high.

When asked about auditioning for Gus Van Sant’s ‘My Own Private Idaho’ when he was high, Kiedis replied:

“Oh, I was in terrible shape that day. I later realized I should have gone up to Gus and said, ‘I’ve been up for two days, I’m high out of my mind, psychologically shattered, I have no business trying to read a single word.’”

‘My Own Private Idaho’ arrived in 1991 and was considered a landmark of independent cinema. Although Kiedis is not in the movie, Flea, the Red Hot Chili Peppers bassist, appears in the film as a street hustler named Budd. As the lead actor, the film also features River Phoenix, a close friend of both Kiedis and Flea, in a standout performance that cemented his status as one of his generation’s most promising young actors. However, Phoenix tragically died of a drug overdose just two years later at the age of 23.